i don't know what to do.
i mean, i really care for this guy but at the same time, i am scared what if it does not work again. what if my family does not like him. i am not brave enough to take chances and risks.
my mind is constantly full of negative thoughts of us that i cannot tell anyone because:
- people will think i am a crazy erratic bitch ( which is true up to 80%)
- people do not understand
- i am an anxious super girl
i do not want to be together with him because of these but i still want him to be around.
we have been fighting because whenever i have negative thoughts, i just revert to my own bubble and it annoys him.
and when he is angry, he loses controls of his words and tones.
and i get hurt
and things become sour on the next day.
and the negative thinking kicks in.
it is a vicious cycle
who said relationships are fun is clearly in a relationship with him/herself.